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BabyGurl041087
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Name: Liz
Metro: Lebanon
Birthday: 4/10/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: scrapbooking, hanging with friends, shopping, movies, teddy bears, peanut butter (right Missa lol), working with kids, summer, vacations...
Expertise: attending HACC and then on to Penn State!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  BabyGurl041087
Member Since:
1/20/2005
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Well it was 6 months this past Thursday. Sometimes it almost feels like
it was yesterday, and other times it feels like it's been years since
I've seen him last. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think
about it. I only wish that I didn't have too....
*Never regret something that once made you smile, but always forget what has made you cry*
*I'm falling apart now in every way, I'm finding it harder to get by,
There's a hole in my heart, And I don't know why, Now I've come to
realize I'm slipping away*
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So she pretends she doesn't care, hoping she can make it through the
day, full of pain that no one can see and at night all she can do is
think of what will never be. When she finally falls asleep, she dreams
of him- his beautiful smile and the way he makes her laugh. This is the
only time she's ever truly happy because in her dreams, they're not
just friends- he loves her back. She wakes back up and knows she has to
face reality- he does not love her. The dream is just a cruel joke
played by the crushed heart he doesn't even know he broke...
I'm a little more than useless, and when I think I can't do this you
prompt me. I'll get through this and do something right, do something
right for once...
"You tell me your life's been way off line, you fall to pieces
everytime.....cuz you had a bad day....you sing a sad song just to turn
it around..."
-Bad Day, by Daniel Powder
*IT'S NOT THE SCARS THAT HURT, BUT THE MEMORIES OF THE MISTAKES THAT KILL US*
<3
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| EDIT (4/10)::::Well Happy Birthday to me today...although I wouldn't say it was happy...
SOME DAYS I JUST WANT TO DIE...
BECAUSE THEN I WOULDN'T FEEL THIS PAIN
a guy once said, I'm not like the rest of the other guys, and then I
learned that he lied to me, so I guess that was just another lie to add
to his list...
someone save me if you will, and take away these pills....
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EDIT (3/22)::::: Somedays I just want to give up and die...is it all worth living for?
*Why is the only question that comes to my mind when I think about all
that I have put myself through. Even though I cry myself to sleep
because of what he does to me, and starve because I don't feel pretty
enough...But still go through each day with a mask on my face so nobody
knows. But if you look close enough, behind the fake smile you'll see a
frown and on my cheeks you'll see the stain lines from all the tears...
*Her friends don't notice that the lunch of hers seems to be shrinking
everyday. And she doesn't show her arms because the cuts are the proof
that she can't take the pain anymore...
~I stole that from Rachel's site~
" I love you but I could never be your Prince Charming," he says as he
walks away from her. She whispers, with tears streaming down her face,
"But you already are..."
And most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room and never
feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you...
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* You're the one who broke my heart, You're the reason my world fell
apart, You're the one who made me cry, Yet I still love you, and I
don't know why...
* The worst feeling isn't being lonely...but being forgotten by someone
you can't forget. To look back and see how things used to be; knowing
it'll never be the same and realizing it doesn't matter to him at all
because he doesn't miss a thing...
* It hurts to get c l o s e to anyone again, because everyone who said, "I'll be there" has left...
<3 <3 <3
EDIT:::::
( there's this someone that I really like and care about, and he cares about me too, and for once I'm truly happy...)
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